April 26, 2012

Bittersweet Homeschooling

Last night, before my husband and I drifted off to sleep, I was we were talking about various things when he made a comment about the kids... wasn't it time to stop schooling for the year? I told him no, six more weeks. He was surprised and asked when they would start up again. I told him September because the kids would be visiting his parents in August. I told him I'd toyed with the idea of possibly starting the beginning of August. It would give them a two-week start before returning. As we chatted back and forth about the details something very real and very terrifying occurred to me...

Harley is starting high school in September..possibly August.

I have been planning for this. His 4-year school plan is ready. His books are ready. Jason and I have gone back and forth on what type of car he should have when he begins to drive. Volunteer work has been discussed as well as major projects. AP courses, college prep, etc. What I did not prepare for was this reality...

We have four years.

In four years it will be  a new journey.. colleges, transcripts, tests. He will be transitioning into adulthood before we can blink. As I've poured through classical literature, math, science, SATs, not once did I stop to reflect on the past five years of homeschooling. They've gone so fast! Too fast! possibly August fast...

My thoughts were racing as my husband and I said goodnight.

Have we done enough?
Have we taught him well?
Will he always choose faith?
Will he be kind?
What kind of adult will he be?

If Jason had still been awake and this conversation had been out loud he would have told me not to worry and probably said, we have four more years.

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.-1 Corinthians 13:7


Happy Elf Mom said...

You look like you have it well in hand! Congrats! :)

Angela DeRossett said...

Thanks! I feel like I am ready but not..ready, if that makes sense. :)

Lisa said...

I'm with you. It is such a responsibility in my mind that I prepare my children for what comes after homeschooling for them. And it is not the same for each child. I have a daughter that is graduating this year (homeschooled) and my son who is "trying" to finish up his 9th grade. I worry about him, as he has to be pushed to do any work at all. So I spend a lot of time worrying and praying about his future. I'm still trying to find the right combination of learning materials for him. Hopefully, I will find it before he is 20! Thank you for your thoughtful post! Homeschooling really is bittersweet.

Angela DeRossett said...

Thanks Lisa! I know it's hard when you have one that needs to be pushed. I have a younger son who fits that description.. not looking forward to him starting high school in the future! lol It amazes me how different each one of them are. Your son is lucky to have you as his mother because you do worry and pray for him.